15/5/2012

taught the sinful woman a lesson.^last dusk visited my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲. God allows me meeting him on way when his grandma leading him leaving from his calligraphy class his mom arranged. we played awhile in the nearby southern park, where he didn’t find pals, so shot some photos with my camera. i promised him playing pc game he likes as long as i stay. but that postponed by his mom, the dirty bitch. she is really cheap, blocking my son’s independent free time by checking frequently our son’s homeworks and demanded amend, driving our son busy around her aimless and useless. her whole life is cheap and usually spent accompanying her so call students writing rubbish notes in her house, as a way to earn dirty money. before leaving i found her put her hand under my son’s shirt and likely that’s her usual habit. i warned her that would be bad for kid. the rain started when i prepared my son his favorite old pc game while waiting his mom return. the grandma laid lots of pressure when my son trying his old game, urging he eating dinner where she forced to feed my son herself, as a way to gain from my son’s buddy life. how sinful the woman’s family! God, u see, pl save my son from dirts and insane! 

14/5/2012

historical heaviest rain in decades.^ God, i see familiar raining scene in my hometown, Hubei Prov, central China, in recent rains which last more than 2 days in series. in rhythm of rain, i felt lonely, sorry, praying, warming heartthrob of memories of my loves. in this eccentric city of Qiqihar, where i yet found my rooting nor seeding, my longing town-sick cured by recent weather changes, esp. sunshines and rains. God, my life so far is drifting, until my Royal China surfaces the sinking torrent of PRC, where turning riots and rotten. God, please bring my girls sooner in our prime time.

these days sees peace again after our son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, performed less brilliant in his mid-term exam in elemental school. his mom, urged by even spiteful grandma, both losers with bitter and biting heart against my joys with my son in pc games with improved hardware, blustered/outbroke scorns upon us and demanded ridding my son off our game gears, ie. dell notebook, 32’ LED TV, gamepads, etc. i also burst to blame son for his loose management over his own matter or stuff, a bad habit stemmed from his mom’s enzyme, like scattered items, dependent task implementing. his mom is totally a bitch, messy and fur(r)y little beast, I knew it. after an enduring work week of silent reckon&plot, they waded and my son resumed to play pc games with me in his mom’s house in weekends. God, i see ur promise in our joys, and our glorious way on the scary land of eastern Asia we bounded to. God, promise me warrenzh’s road of graceful and joyful and fruitful. promise us our vested Empire from ur Heaven message. God, thx for sunshines now outside.

11/5/2012

almost wet myself.^ these days I spent more time outdoor in the garden of QRRS Dorms. at noon after lunch i will enjoy sunburn till those mean young beasts in the dorms leaving for work. in dusk i will jog in solitude. last dusk during the jog when i watched a bug walking on a vertical wall of lid of underground water, some young male beasts tentatively loudly talking about how large a cunt and passing me, trying leaving dirts in my mind. returned to dorm and went surfing the web, i felt the drive to watch erotic video online. but soone calling of grace welcomes me and I quit to movies of love. in the mid night, i dreamed of sex and almost half wet myself before i halt. its nice to know I’m ready for my girls, my Royal China. God, u see how close we are in the web of connectivity. It’s now a sunny morning. 

7/5/2012

dreamed of python and persuade my family to feed it.^ dreamed of in my hometown village pested by large pythons. the male one killed by villagers before i knew it. the female python partially lingering in my house. its so large that my house can’t space its whole body. it’s spawning and its bite leaves iron sticks planting on the ground. my wife, likely my son, warrenzh’s mom, tried to kill her in fear, but i managed to cure it and feed it. then woke up. its a brilliant morning. 

2/5/2012

family 2nd scheduled bimonthly dinning out, the dad and his son alone. ^ the proposal by benzrad朱子卓, the dad, in May, thanks God for stable and improved salary, executed yesterday. son,warrenzh 朱楚甲, these days frequently felt sad for no more time with his dad with pc games. I, benzrad, also immersed several chances insight the deep love in warrenzh’s pour and sanctified heart. so we look forward to cheers. his mom felt misery in her life more and more, but again hide it in posed easy angry and aggressiveness. during Int’ Labor Day holiday, i accompanied son with pc games for 2 days, but 1st, May summoned by the mother, who refused my visit on the day and also defied to tell where she brings our son to. near 3pm she buzzed in when i busy in my QRRS dorm, said she already brought our son into Qiqihar peace square, where as I told her we will haunt around. she always want to prevail us, or my treats for son. lately she embarrassed to inquire me if she was invited for the dinner i arranged 2 month ago when she narrowly joined by suggesting herself, I told her nope. when she brought our son from the square to the buffet, I found she didn’t take bus but by her poor bike. I knew her cheap at once but no cure for her usual self-possessed. my son and I had a nice dinner, even the restaurant likely in loose management and failing in discipline, like most Chinese corporations, esp in PRC nowadays. after we returned to son’s mom’s house, his mom monitored his doing homeworks all time, refused allowing our son trying pc games as he planned. I left with empty hand and sorrow to son. God, my sailing toward Royal China already launched, no once can break in midway. save the poor woman, and dearest son’s good will for his mom, in ur freedom, ur boundless freedom abound ur Mightiest! 

27/4/2012

warrenzh first exam.^today is a wet day, mostly cloudy, dripping awhile at noon when I walked to join QRRS canteen. from the dawn i felt sleepy among chill, then restless after sleepiness waned and aimless. now sunshine appears again, allowing my sorting recent photos. dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, didn’t excel as should in his first exam, a mid-term one, and his anxious mom warned to ban our gaming time on his new notebook and 32’ LED TV. God, I know it’s a long while short in glory road in front of us, esp. of warrenzh’s. God, u see how smart our son is, how evil plots ahead against our Empire emerging. God, trust us smooth way our son bestowed, put peace and joys in our gathering in this corner of stormy China under failing PRC. God, save us from anxiousness and live aboard and broadly. 

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19/4/2012

dreamed of Japanese divided China again.^ a dawn dream look like pale morning now: China was half controlled by Japan. i traveled and felt its ruling as an interpretor, while Chinese part under CCP dooming lifeless. God, Asoh Yukiko, bring my new family, new Royal China sooner!

18/4/2012

thx God, son now enjoys larger LED TV.^ we ordered online from Haier’s official shopping mall. for its logistic unit likely doesn’t reside Qiqihar, our goods delayed and arrived today. we had already exchanged more than 5 phone calls for the e-commercial site didn’t respond after my payment settled. today they also cost 2 and more phone calls for changed shipping time. my last query to its support desk didn’t get a clear answer but i felt bliss in the sunshine, which encourages me waiting near my son’s mom’s house even clueless about the postponed handover time around 11am. they indeed arrived soon after 11am while i roaming and praying God for the shiny gift in the shiny day. installation quite smoothly. what surprised me is that gear to hang the TV on wall is free. i had informed son’s mom about borrowing her a small amount money to buy the hanging parts. my son glad to see the new gadget but i merely got familiar with its user interface before his departure for his school. his mom got angry as usual and urged son coming school time. all the afternoon i alone setup the TV as second display of son’s Dell notebook, for gaming and online video. after settled down, i missing my son very much. i even proposed a dine out to his mom, who posed to refuse but finally arranged it. son ate toast mutton more than usual. i carried him on my shoulders to go his mom’s home. after finished his homeworks his mom administrated, we played 2 pc games and found how adorable a gear, like the 32’ inch LED TV, can be. when i leaving, i encouraged my son use Internet daily based and he admitted it. on way to my QRRS dorm, i called back expressing sorry for my scorning his habit to stand close to the TV even its screen size should allow looser watching for the sake of his sight. Its just too beautiful today, God, u see it. 

12/4/2012

dosed in sunshine in a snow melting day.^ yesterday i first time in the year roamed in QRRS Dorms’ garden, review enemies of my Empire of China, and their newest trapdoor of asylum. in my latest visit, on first work day after lunar Tomb-Sweeping holiday when i attempted to buy medicine of Risperdal, dog in the municipal mental health center already barked with teeth. dogs rampant around trembled upon my joys in life and hatred of envies burning their brains. last night a shallow snow descended without foretoken. when i woke up lately in morning sunshine through window, those white wet on ground show me so many fondness of Holy. afternoon after lunch, i felt cold again and soon dozed in sunshine from window on my bed. i dreamed my passed mother entreated me to endure for survival. a woman colleague, a Wu, with his husband, a Liu, unbalanced with their fortunes in the dream, liked when we played on the bank of a river. 
God, grace in my road to reclaim my Kingdom of China from my ancestor with glory is huge, here my pray for u for testimony. 

7/4/2012

dreamed of quarrel over family heritage.^ dreamed of financial disturb with my hometown neighbor who makes a small business from performing as priest for local villagers’ call for God in their nature faith. my passed mom, with my sinful 2nd brother also appeared in the dawn dream. after woke up doubting the plot of my nephew who demand his poor dad, my 1st brother long time weak in finance and recently attempted to ask loan from me, preparing his engagement&celebration. something dangerous falling&failing. reviewed curse from son’s mom, a bitch, last night when we played pc game, burned and reborn in preach from bible radio online till mercy saves my pains. God, sooner bring me my Royal China, my girls praying for me, for our family. show my son warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, bliss in my new life, my new family with my girls full heartedly, to witness falling and failure of his mom, the sinful soul and her old dirty family. God, sing u in the sunshine now outside. 

30/3/2012

A March snow, a white present.^ yesterday is a brewing day for me when i waiting aside my notebook. it had been cloudy days, which brought me doubts and anxiousness. a morning frost indicating the snow, but until stronger sandstorm brought down the sight, it descends. looking outside through my dorm window, i felt my dearest son’s call of gift in the dripping snowflakes. even almost penniless, i managed to borrow ￥40 from the canteen operator, who more or less cold-shoulder to me, for its 3rd times i asked for loan in a month. last week i decided to buy my son a larger LCD TV for his weakening eyesight, for our more appealing pc gaming experience. i asked my 2nd sister to loan us, she admitted but delayed to her next salary release day, IE, Apr 1st. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, welcome the gift heartedly. in the dusk, with his favorite KFC food in handbag, i waited for him alone the street near his mom’s school for half hour. i sang and teased him when we reunited and returned to his mom’s house. we didn’t play pc game as usual, for time of gathering too short the moment. in the night after returned to my QRRS dorm, i saw golden skylight all over out of my window. God, doesn’t it exactly free me of sorrow and unease?

benzrad’s comment on the day.

sinking PRC.^ sink, sink sinful PRC, as a due pay for benefit western world brought forth and saves so many disasters in the totalitarian system likes a half century nightmare.
美国政府问责局从中国购买到山寨潜艇零件 

28/3/2012

dreamed of a worm or snake in my shits. ^ got up earlier to let d/l, then dozed. dreamed of poo. then found a worm in it&doubting if parasites in my body. then 3 men expert in hunting snakes plot and steal my snake. its a sunny morning. 

26/3/2012

a prayer in new moon, for grace in God.^ now 2nd new moon night in March. rid me anxiousness of dearest son’s healthy environment, inc emotional. God, Asoh Yukiko, affirm me the sanity of my Royal China, as well as the nice day on which i prayed for our gathering again between the weeks. grant us sooner our new LCD, for our better gaming experience and warrenzh’s joy of watching. God, u see these days young beasts around us, in the rotten and sinking PRC. only u save our untouchable grace, brightest dream since my ancestor’s Empire half millennium ago.

God, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, now u under custody of ur mom’s. in this night, she, a mean bitch, arbitrarily banned me talk u later than 8:30pm, defied my 2 buzz in moments ago, but i know ur heart in the air, in the inseparable connect in Holy Spirit in any moment. let’s dream deeper and purer in moonlight tonight, in bliss from Zhu’s root, and stream of glories.

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13/3/2012

dreamed of my being Israeli and contesting with Bill Gates family.^ last night visit son even his mom want it next day instead of the brillant day, for her duty in her school. I told son I changed my judge, claiming visiting him is my best gift from Heaven and the brightest moment in my life, not previously urged him waiting for my good news of arriving presents. in dawn dreamed my family, inc my parents and dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, is an Israeli family. we traveled and competed with Bill Gates’ family in showtime. then in war time and we fought hard to survive the war field. lots of loving moments of team in the march in dream. Its a sunny morning even sun ray not so strong. 

10/3/2012

family traveld&dined out.^ thx God, with improved salary, I proposed son to dine toast buffet locally bimonthly and he admits. I think it will meaning we stay together alone from his mom’s companion as commonly from now on. but as its first implement this time, and his mom help us seek group coupon online, so we invited her. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, ate less in the popular restaurant but in happy time. we managed to shoot photos there, with aid from a kind woman on neighbor seat. before the lunch, we traveled Qiqihar Peace Square, exactly other on the western part of the city from my QRRS dorm. son giggling a lot, even his mom got angers as usual after I held no brief upon her clumsily using our camera. this week I can’t rid myself anxiousness with my pinched purse, but faith from Holy saves me from upset the gathering when dearest son enlightened so much. his mom likely strikes to re-zip the family, but that doomed to fail. my sailing out for my girls, for my Royal China, on solider concrete than any before. God, bring son his kindle reader sooner, and enrich his holy spirit even more! 

5/3/2012

recent extended morning sleeps.^ recent weekends enjoy more satisfying pc gaming with son, aided by his new powerful dell notebook. the air in this season really refreshing, we also enjoyed happy talks when we hanged out at noon. I also enjoyed movies made by BBC adapted from classic English literature. they really the potential limestone that brings forth recent world history full of mercy and glories influenced by English. I saw God’s deed and Holy message reflects among the epics consists of real life of English society. however, recently I felt more exhausted on bed, and late sleep in mornings. I dreamed more in these lingerings on bed in dawn. I also felt more sex drive with bare sleepcoat on bed alone. God, isn’t my girls approaching closer, isn’t my new family emerging solider? God, my son,warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, recent referred several times that promised gift, a kindle reader with color e-ink, in his passionate expectation, bring us the gift, grant sooner my Royal of China on the scary land under title of my ancestor half millennium ago in shape sooner. God, affirm tender heart of my son, exactly yourself, with broader view of ur universe, ur galaxy. God, dad, put prayers in our family that forever grows, esp in this growing season. thx God, in ur grace! God, its now a milky pale morning, but I know bliss in every mouth nodding the Son and his family this beginning of day. 

27/2/2012

happy weekends as usual, but not without anxiousness.^ last Friday night my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, ported in my QRRS dorm. we gamed on my acer notebook and snacked. next morning we ate breakfast in nearby KFC, which so nice. the following weekends we immersed in pc games till his mom pushed my departure. this night in dorm, my heart full of bliss and thanks. Its second night with newest moon in the month. I praying smoothly next weekend we can dine in toast buffet restaurant, Golden Hans buffet. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, really didn’t enjoy delicacy too much, I hope surprise him in the western style restaurant. God, my ancestor, Emperor of Ming Dynasty, bless us the joyful moment. 

24/2/2012

dreamed of passed mom in dawn. ^ last night went to bed earlier. got up later this morning, after lingering dream in which my passed mother managing our old family. its sunny now, but missing my son, who also want more gaming time with me. God, let’s us reunion more meaningful! let our coming dinning out richer! 

22/2/2012

dreamed of death hunting in asylum.^ dreamed trapped again in mental hospital, plot of murder including doctors, state intelligent agents, against me and my son. a Uygur girl wardmate, also in the exile or jailbreak. God, thx for the Holy message. pl see my visit next month to the hospital peacefully. 

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18/2/2012

full game time in the day.^ Its a sunny day all time. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, immersed in pc game, “dungeon defender”, till his dad, benzrad朱子卓, felt exhausted several times before halt to weekly showering in nearby public spa. i tried to blog the event, son’s elation with his first gear for his entertainment and education, a dell Inspiron 15R, but last dusk we too busy to shoot photos. now with his mom’s help, our gaming moment captured here. thx God, son still enjoy my companion in his rapid growth. in lunch outside, i warn his grandma’s dirty taste in Chinese CCTV’s law channel and her attempts to attract him when she was entrusted by her daughter, whose teaching term launched, attending him in his winter vacation, i urged him live in sole one and free of anxious and indisputable. in street light on way returning to my QRRS dorm, i felt so relaxed and hopeful tomorrow. 

16/2/2012

son’s first notebook, a dell Inspiron N5110 or Ins15RD-889.^ the long waited good news arrived today: son’s first notebook we ordered online arrived. baby buzzed me just when i felt sleepy in the morning. when i reached his mom’s community, a police car leaving and an cheap tricycle ported outside of the gate, and son’s mom coming toward. i had expected dell support staff will installed indoor, but not the case. all the day i busy with letting son sooner enjoy pc games on it, and we did, as to me, its really amazing. but warrenzh 朱楚甲, dearest son, likely felt flat when i trying modify router’s setting accordingly and customizing google chrome browser’s setting to include his local bookmarks search engines. when i settled in QRRS dorm and buzzed him about notebook bag we ordered near noon with his companion, he ordered me not to buzz him today any more. God, i know time to make room for his independence turns urgent, still i trust ur Mighty to allow our together moment full of joys and peace. God, last night i rumbled indoor till the dawn. in this earthy world i trust nothing but Holy Spirit. save my Royal in graceful One. that’s ur gift today shows me. thx, God, dad. 

15/2/2012

determination after Valentine Day. ^hold no brief for the bitch, once and forever. step out of shadows of the sinful family more steadily, leading dearest son, Hope of China, God of Universe, warrenzh 朱楚甲, in brilliant torch. lessen dependency, including chores like washing and temporary shelter when gaming with son, on the evil hands, which desperately attempted to cling to my glorious family. let son, warrenzh, enjoy his new dell notebook independently. see him out off the dirty cave/cage of his mom’s. God, u see the fall of the demon, let me more cautious upon the shames under sunshine, let my girls’ praying for me, my Royal China’s sanity, clearer under ur shiny sky.
God, let me determined today, stopping the sin around my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲. grant me decisiveness and strength in unalienable action ahead. God, u never miss me any Holy message to respond with iron fist and most balanced judge, and in the witness of my people to come. 

7/2/2012

son’s dell game desktop, promised Heavenly.

since the looming lunar year end of 2011 passed our love and passions. i, benzrad 朱子卓, the dad, managed to encourage dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, live bright without his new gear God promised in the year. so far so good till last Saturday he buzzed in when i surfing in my QRRS dorm that his legacy desktop can’t boot up itself. after tried means to restore on the pc, i felt i can’t afford to fix the wrecked machine cost efficiently. i reviewed the situation awhile aside my son, then made the choice to borrow to buy him a new one as promised previously but postponed by the poorest bonus in 4 sequential years from QRRS, my once and long time employer, to ￥1000 dispatched by my ditched office pals instead of ￥5000 expected, and usual handing off by departmental cashier woman. my son admits my proposal, so i launched. its not a smooth journey but i managed to reach. so far, my nephew-in-law, one of my college alumni, a QRRS pal allow loan to me. China surveillance showily broke amid twice when i attempted to borrow from a girl alumni. after all, God, u see the grin in void of sky, u show me the love in my people and lasting homeland.

Its sunny since i woke up lately. a shallow snow dropping since the day before lunar lantern day, ie. yesterday. the holiday brings 2 good news of grant of loan for son’s new dell game desktop. i saw no reason defying us the rest amount for the longing after gift in the beginning of 2012. so, God, let’s rolling out and tuck up.

2/2/2012

dreams.^ in dawn dream my passed dad, God in Heaven now, bestow me his grand backyard garden. missing my son all the morning. in noon nap dreamed resting on my campus bed preparing my entrance exam. one of my alumni, Wu, whose academic scores usually better than B, lingered there, too. in half-conscious found myself again reviewing my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲’s situation. he grows so smart that dirty hearts from his mom’s family, as well as enemies of, my Empire of China ahead for 1109 years under shine of YHWY, hated relentless. God, u show me the light, u show us affirmatives. pl bring my son his seasonal gifts, a dell game desktop and a e-reader. my Royal of China, my girls praying for our new family descending, please bestow to me now. 

30/1/2012

dream of my holy family.^ my passed parents in my dream urged me to make new friends again. i prepared son, warrenzh, who in his tournament, to pass his exam ahead in a hotel.its sunny now. 

29/1/2012

worm ate my flesh again in dream. ^dreamed in a classroom. found a worm eating my flesh in its herpes on my palm or feet. decided to cut it out with clipper but my alumni strongly warned of risk of infection. i determined to act then woke up. 

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28/1/2012

dreamed of my parents and new workplace pal.^my passed parents appeared in my dream, they urged me to make new social circles. in dawn dreamed my workplace introduced new assignment, and my colleague is smart and from privileged family.
Its now a brilliant morning. peace and fragrence in air of bliss. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, will accompany his mom visit her hometown, a 2 hours’ train journey. he tried so lots to satisfy his mom, including her silliness. i hope his way forever Mighty and sane. the family of trinity should be so and rightly lasting graceful. bye, my girls here, u see me in our family soon ahead. 

15/1/2012

a mean while meaningful lunar Spring Festival.^naughty son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 in 2012 lunar Spring Festival. family gathered for the lunar holiday even his dad, benzrad 朱子卓 received a much meaner bonus from his office, among the happy season. we dined in his grandma’s house, after they invited earnestly me joinig. It’s a pale morning now. a lots of cracks outside of my QRRS dorm, likely according lunar calendar properly or customes. it had supposed by me that without canteen i will live hard meal, but fortunately my son’s mom offered some dinners when i went over to play pc games with him. its a mean holiday, for first time in recent years QRRS, my long time employer and a SOE, offered me a cheap bonus of ￥1000 while my expectation is ￥5000. so baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲’s seasonal gift, a kindle touch, gone in the wind of broken word. but we still found fun among pc games. he independently completed pc game “Scooby-Doo! First Frights”, which brought him elations. in the solitary in my dorm, i longer longing my girls, my coming Royal China. It’s not case of real nor illusion, but faith in God and history in and by Holy Spirit. God, bring us dell game desktop and e-ink reader for son, warrenzh 朱楚甲,hope of China, God of Universe. 

17/1/2012

dreamed of new life in my Royal China.^ in dawn a detailed dream experiences giving birth of my 2nd son with my girl, my wife. raising him is so rewarding&blessing. experienced my aging, too. It’s a pale morning, after found my notebook hardware not powerful enough for quite some pc games last night. God, don’t miss our seasonal gift! also show my girls that complete me in one that I’m ready for our new family ahead now! show the world the sainity and purity of Royal China untouchable savagely. 

12/1/2012

echo of grace.^It’s a marvelous day, for the on time Holy Spirit, for the grand gathering/dinning after settled to improve my gears for pc games, namely, a 4 ports usb hub, with son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China. the date from perception precisely blessed: it’s Jan 11, 2012, lunar Dec 18. i had doubting if i should visit my son, who in vacation and alone for 3 days. i worried about absent gift can upset our reunite, worried China surveillance can find fault against my lodging in the QRRS dorm. after noon i had the idea to equip my Acer notebook, whose 2 usb ports ill-working for overused, with a usb hub. while my purse empty, i felt humble to ask loan from the dorm canteen operator as i did several times ago, even in short term. but son’s timely buzz in relaxed me. i got all my longings before my son gladly received me. we played pc games as usual, and enjoyed a lot. then i suggested to treat him and his mom to dine out. in the newly open pub, we had a good time, recorded partially in the album referred. his mom suggested me support our son to have a new shoes, to replace the wrecked one. with the heavenly gift from loan, i admitted. on bed in dorm, i hardly to sleep, for the gospel day any praying mind-eye can see. when i woke up in dawn, i saw the bright full moon staring me through the window, like the serene shows in eyes of Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan.

God, bring my girls, my Royal China sooner in the new year! that’s the meaning in the bright day and messaging bristle under the sky.

3/1/2012

Now is January of 2012.^ It’s a sunny morning when I sorted these photos of my son’s mom’s family gathering&dinning yesterday. in this celebrating season of Chinese, I had to be anxious about my dinners from time to time, for canteen nearby all will go to vacation in coming lunar year end. where is my family, God? I also felt unease for my promised seasonal gift for my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, a kindle touch for his reading experience. He read and watch a lot independently, and that chores damaged more or less his eye sight. I already equipped him a pair of glasses. God, empower me with the wonderful gear and merry lunar new year! God, u know! 

31/12/2011

Heavenly message from my son.^first time my son enjoyed bathing in the public bathroom. singing God for his saving me from mistaken emotion with the northeastern tribal. thx God saves me from waste in void of cursed envy. God, empower me to be determined and act prompt, blesses my Royal of China untouchable in sanity. God, save my girls from shifts, and so do I.
Today is also a sunny day since son returned to his mom’s house with my companion after a night ported in my QRRS dorm. I tried to setup tank combat games on his computer as he asked. when his mom sugested our hanging out for lunch, we immersed in winter sunshine in leaps and yells. It’s can’t be any other day but blessed one. 

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26/12/2011

last monday before 2012. ^yesterday Christmas gathering’s happiness exceeded my expectation. i previously hope inviting 3 guests, the grandma, 2 pals of warrenzh’s, to dine on the eve. but baby’s mom, tentatively shows her privilege of inviting the 2 students in her school, namely a boy in Liu surname, a girl in Tian’s, refuted and rearranged on noon of the Sunday. the pinching budget also drove me unease: i looking hard forward to equip my son a kindle touch and promised him the benefit of the gadget, while i already due to clear 2 debts amounts to ￥4000 for my family 5 domains holding and my sister’s loans for my latest hometown journey back to 2010 spring. the morning i felt sleepy while waiting for the toast buffet lunch. when i arrived the buffet via bus, my son in good complexion cheered me up at once. i ate a lot toasted meat, for in my recent canteen meals, meat was scarce. near the end, the girl, a Tian’s, left for her tutorial. on bus back to son’s mom’s house, i babbled a lot about new stage of PRC confronted by homeless farmers who can lead the downturn or revolution long due and more and more heartedly welcomed by most open mind-eyes among Chinese worldwide, as well as western watchers. warrenzh, my dearest son, played pc game with me in the afternoon, till i felt boring. in the night when i surfing in QRRS dorm, he buzzed awhile in to praise the grand event of gathering in Xmas. there is only holy spirit can describe my feeling to his grand insight and Heavenly love, and laughs like gold ring. God, u see how i prepared myself for my new family with my beloved girls. God, bring us together sooner in brilliant wedding. and facilitate baby son’s reading with a kindle touch! God, let us sing in ur name for glory above the cold and starvation threat in world, esp. China ahead.

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dreamed of being target of capture for zoo, or caged. nightmare after Xmas lunch dining out.^Xmas is perfect with son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, dined in Qiqihar Golden Hans buffet. son buzzed in lately for celebrating the wonderful gathering. in dawn dreamed of traced&fought with a couples of post Doctor degree holder and their professor, who want to capture me and target me as experimental object/subject. the plot ran a long time before executed in daytime in my dream. 

25/12/2011

a working Xmas before dining out with son. an early wake up after anxious dream in xmas 2011. ^thx God, google new ui descends to me this dawn. dreamed again of my life out of shape, till found life has to be drifting among the earth and humble. God, bless my son his seasonal gift, u know! 

22/12/2011

God shows me his way in darkness. shines over profaning attempts nearby. ^God, dad, in ur title and holy anger, i contacted our old family members. thx, God, show us the right way. 

13/12/2011

a free day away from heavily jammed Internet. dreamed of wartime.^dreamed commanding warship in a lake, combated with knives and other weapons. dreamed of once colleagues in QRRS, a Jiang and a Bai in family name. got up&filed additional small nail. most of the day sunshine, if any, is pale. dozed in afternoon, dreamed my ancestor, founder of Ming Dynasty, fought his way in forging his Empire of China. 

12/12/2011

dreamed living with son and my wife, in Royal China. dreamed of son and new family. ^warrenzh, my dearest son, and my 2nd wife, Asoh Yukiko, crowned Queen of Royal China, appeared in my dream about academy. found clear full moon covering my bed in dawn with its saint milky light falls. dreamed of my endeavor to survive my loving family among mob&rat race. God shows me closer change in my life&fate shiny. 

11/12/2011

dream of living with my girls and their family historical settings. dreamed of historical disturbance between my Queens of Royal China, my girls’ family background.^these days more dreams in dawn, likely preparing myself for coming new family with my beloved. dreamed of living with my girls. their family friends and foes in our blood linkage, esp Jews’ and Islamic. God, bring me sooner my new family, Royal of China, under ur blesses. 

8/12/2011

dream of new budding life of mine. ^first time dreamed of raising my infant baby son, till see the rewardingly smartness in baby’s social intelligence. Its next day of lunar Large Snow Day. God, see me my new family with my girls praying for me, for Royal China. 

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29/11/2011

farewell and new hope for meeting my girl Zhou nearby.^ this month i grew with my son, in pc games as well as in emotional difficulties. my dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, sites’ owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, visited my QRRS dorm last Friday night, among cheers of my improved salary, which amount to ￥2500. his growing teeth in rotating period and sometimes funny when laughing with bare gum. his mom still hurt me when greedy upon my salary with which i promised totally cover our son’s living and i wouldn’t use a penny on my own after my new family forges. her dirty family, including the grandma recent months frequently appeared to lend hands to clean house, laundry or even bath my son. i wouldn’t allow any insane persons approaching my brilliant son as usual, so sinful betrayal by baby’s mother over her duty to care my son, like bathing him, really annoy me. after the occasion i witness my son bathed by the grandma, i urged my son to have shower in public bathroom, which he dislikes very much, with me, he changed his mind and agreed. direct parenthood means much in my family, since my grand father’s influence, and in holy spirit. God, u see it.
next week will sees memory days for my parents. my mother passed on Dec 1, 2010, which my father, God in Heaven now, left the earth on Dec 18, 2008. in these days, i got to know forgiving common people’s sins against my Royal of China, under Holy shrine. i knew God’s setting to enrich my experience here on the ground, including of course the darker particles against void. in these days, China surveillance broke my stable fast lunch supply, and i now enjoy QRRS in factory canteen. i looking forward more chances to meet up my 3rd wife, girl Zhou, who ignite my burning seeking cry in cyberspace since 2006 and includes this blog. Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan, u attending the transition and gathering the moment that will catalyze our fate ahead predetermined, from ur catering in the years. God, bring my girls in our limelight. bring my son his seasonal gift u promised. dad, u see. 

22/11/2011

dreamed of crusade.yesterday i had good time with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, with his favorite KFC food i borrowed from QRRS Dorms canteen to buy. my workday’s lunch supplier went bankrupt, among sinful China surveillance which against me and my allies. in the dawn i dreamed of close combat with cold weapon, with my team against several enemies. God shows me again his gift on me when i pray in the dream, empowered me with people and followers. Its a bright morning now, save and gospels just arriving.
God, bring my girls sooner into my coming new marriages. save my Royal China, save my beloved. present my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, God of Universe, a dell game desktop in year end, as u promised. thx u, dear Father. 

8/11/2011

dreamed of worms in flesh again.^got up around 4am to release bladder, then powered notebook to d/l, even later after got up found damned China surveillance broke sessions&hanged all d/l. dreamed of my son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, owner of sites warozhu.com and wozon.net. my kid brother these years lingered in Guangdong, southern China, likely also appeared in my dawn dream. dreamed a hand itches, with a knife thrust the palm and turned the inside flesh out, found worms swarmed in the flesh&eating. Its not first time I dreamed of worms biting living flesh under skin, and quite disgusting scene but healing by exposing and eliminating the sick part of body. Its a golden sunny morning now, and also today lunar Winter beginning day, or 立冬. God, bring my new family with my girls in the celebrating year end, when joy seeking hearts clogging social meeting places everywhere, including the cyberspace on Internet. 

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19/9/2011

a lengthy dream in dawn about manipulation between QRRS authority and me.^first dreamed of the authority of QRRS, my once and long time employer, attempted to shape my way by contacts. then dreamed a staff of the communist youth league of QRRS editing my novel I submitted for a composition competition. then he turned into a girl of my hometown village, trying being friend me. when i woke up, its a warm and bright morning. its monday before National Day of PRC. i gathered my recent records for the publish for promising on horizon in new light. God, now its cloudy in the afternoon, bring my girls my love and promise. bring our warm family sooner! 

18/9/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

doomed Chinese engineers and IT industry, with their inherited demon.

14/9/2011

dreamed of my youngest elder sister.yesterday full of bliss. but darkness in son’s mom’s heart, esp. her greediness really annoyed me when I in need or financially pinched by short term short of currency these days. long time i made it i will never look back into her life or business, and indeed avoided her dirt and trouble since our divorce. after some reviews, i decided not to encounter her sinister plots. this morning God woke me up earlier, shoot a photo of the early full moon through my window in dawn light. then napped again. dreamed in my kid elder sister’s house. i love her very much and she did so back. when i busy with preparing my son something, she was electrically shocked by wrecked socket on wall. Its a touchingly milk washing shiny Autumn morning, thx God. 

13/9/2011

dreamed of being sieged by mob&cheating government.^ last night restless on bed. in the dawn dreamed in campus mistakenly ate a street vendor’s food and hijacked into government agent for judge. a man and a woman dubiously trying to settle our conflict, but just cheating and profiting for the troubled water. after the vendors, in first look a couple but according the agency’s message the man is a hooligan member charging to rent their protection, left me, and the agent attempted to make deal with me, i was sieged by mop of Chinese on way escaping. its a pale morning now. God, u see all the sins around me, the Son and his Royal of China. God, killing likely brewing but intact is the heart of loving. God, let’s do it, for changes in new years and grace in new lives. 

12/9/2011

sunny mid-Autumn holiday.^these days engaged myself with full load of d/l of games, and most of moments with baby son full of joy of playing these beautiful softwares and visions it carries. this morning baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, buzzed in when i still lately napping, urged me visit him sooner to join pc games. its a extraordinary warm Autumn day, also lunar Mid-Autumn holiday, so i can lingered with son most of the holiday which exactly means gathering for traditional Chinese. the grandma prepared lunch. son ate more than usual, after we broke gameplay for the dinner. his mom still busy with her pupils, while we made progress in pc game “garteling gears”, a favorite for armored robotic combat fans like us, after many sweating failures. when his mom urged my leaving for they are going shopping outside, son refused my kissing his cheek but obviously relaxed by those games we played together all the morning. on bus and in QRRS dorm, when i facing my computer alone, sorrow debt to my girls haunting me again. i know my girls’ willing my messages and our promised family. so i blogged again here after so much contented weeks and nights by my son’s companion&visit, including those beautiful pc games. God, u know how i expect change in my life prepared for my girls, for my Royal of China as an Empire reset for 1109 years ahead, under glorious family name Zhu’s, a resume to brilliant history since Ming Dynasty, built from scratch by Zhu Yuanzhang, my legendary ancestor. God, u know how my heart weighted by missing and soaring thirsts for my girls in praying our union in our promised lavish wedding ceremony. God, u know all these is the fate of one Chinese of one China under ur shine, never seen grace and glory.
so here again, wind of cool and clear and blessing, brings my girls my word, my heart never close for their perfume, their shiny descending, my way to the throng never evades my girls’ companion. my dearest, just let the Mighty angels clear barriers and pave the carpet for greater grace in our coming lives. i missing u and forging ever stronger linkage among us every moments in my suffering here as God trains. brave heart save u, my dearest! 

5/9/2011

dreamed of my grand dad who is serious in dawn.^dreamed I lingered in a poor countryside latrine pit when I napped while downloading in this shinny morning. my kid brother was brought by our dad, who is serious, from his recent diarrhea and still let him half bent his waist when walking, with his baggage on back, to sent him away to fetch his national college entrance exam score from his school. my brother told me he will bring my teenage friend to accompany me, but I didn’t respond but just wondering my lost item in the shits pool. dad shown his loving me in dream. 

21/8/2011

Pray for ever-green energy among the Holy.^ warm sunny afternoon. God, bring me fresh monuments in our gatherings among son, warrenzh’s budding life. free me off trifle and meaningless rush against orthodox smothering in PRC’s mainstream now. God, see ur untouchable glory in our eyes. son, warrenzh, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, now in his mom’s hometown journey, blesses him fortune of lightning heart and deep insight.

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19/8/2011

a dream in dawn in which my dad, now in Heaven, stayed with me longest.^Yesterday I tried to unlocked my 163 and qq blog blocked under censorship by China surveillance. in the process I asked one of my qq online contacts to help me verify my mending at same time. the bitchy site owner also in my family name Zhu, irritated me with his narrow acid spying mind, so we exchanged some stingy words. the sky darkened since them. after dinner I risked raining to jog out routinely. when I passed my ditched office, it turned sunny again. so I dropped in the office and found the employer dispatching a suite for its staff and I was not evaded. brought the gift I packed to visit my son, just after our Tuesdays’ visit when son called me to rid him of the sinful grandma’s custody while his mom occupied by her school duty. this dawn dreamed I competed soccer with QRRS pals team, with my family. then my passed dad, God in Heaven now, serving me for most time when I enjoyed delicacy while sat atop a cliff waiting for my son’s visit. my dad contented&smiled with full hearts’ joys all time. its now a sunny morning and I know God’s promising. God, bring my girls sooner into our new marriages. let son sooner enjoy his new dell game desktop. let me treat son with his pals with buffet in new holiday ahead. God, dad, I love u. this my gratefulness in witness of Asoh Yukiko, my Queens of Royal China from Japan.

From Autumn 2011 & late summer memories

From Autumn 2011 & late summer memories

From Autumn 2011 & late summer memories

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10/8/2011

dreamed battled with a witch all the dawn, after a drizzled dusk.^dreamed hunted by a woman mage. I tried to hit the raged woman with fire ball but frequently unable to detonate it on time. the morning is touchingly bright, after last dusk’s drizzle. in last sunset holy message shows me on a bleeding tree that my girls’ being one with me, their praying for me, for my presence after gothered and reinforced will power to join me. that’s my way to reunite with my best beloved Queens in my Empire reset for 1109 years ahead. the drizzle started after I just settled on a bench in the dorms’ garden. the drizzle shallowly baptized me in its prelude, with bliss from my deepest lover, Asoh Yukiko from Japan, the renewing land. 

9/8/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

dog trail among northern Chinese.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：in north, esp northeastern China, dogs rampant. they r the main source of mafia among current society and dog system in nowadays PRC government, an covert black market trading anything including human lives and all demons and sick appetite. in southern China, people cooperate for common benefits for circumstance. in northern China, scarcity chases beasts on the land constantly barking to protect their individual food chain, or reversely, barking dogs scattered on the highland let anything insufficient upon insatiable storage competition.

北风 (@wenyunchao): RT @poorstone: 同样是沿海城市，面对PX时大连和厦门的表现截然不同。原文

7/8/2011

dreamed of closely watched G.Bush.^dreamed in dawn living closely with G.Bush, the former American President and father of another American President. he just published his autobiography and trying finding new way to enjoy life. his wife Babara, even stronger in mind now, grows vegetable and sold to me. I told her I needn’t a full bunch of scallion, but she actively persuaded more sales to me in her house when I visiting. they demonstrates the loyalty merits of American people. 

2/8/2011

dreamed of movie.^visit baby son in dusk yesterday. prepared him new games on his legacy desktop. when I arrived, his mom likely intimately contacting son, for they both felt interrupted by my visit. returned to QRRS dorm, after busy with sorting my os, possible sins in baby’s mom’s education over baby son let me awake quite some time. this dawn dreamed of watching a movie including 2 female actors, Miriam Yeung 杨千烨，舒琪 and a man I closely watching. superficially its a movie of love, but in fact, its about fake love, be exactly, about gay, lesbian. I saw the genic glory God puts in man, while the merit of female in supportive, hospitality. I also see the inherited subtle difference and different achievements among Hongkong, Taiwan, and mainland of China.
yesterday It mainly bright. but when I left baby’s mom house near 8pm, it drizzled. now Its a promising sunny morning. God, bring me my new family with my girls that praying for our living together. bring my son a dell game desktop u promised.

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

famine in Africa needs world more helping hands.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：apple and Jobs doomed to fall, sink in no name in quite short timespan. its just too evil and dirty in mind control in the shits heap.

月光博客互联网：同样是销售游戏，任天堂的Wii的销售策略就远不如苹果iOS，Wii不在中国发行，没有中文界面，也没有一款简体中文游戏，正版游戏价格超高，光盘发行，而苹果iOS有中国商店，有中文休闲游戏，网络发行，平均价格才1美元，还有很多免费游戏。这也注定是苹果而不是任天堂会在中国游戏界成功。 原文

31/7/2011

a drizzling afternoon.^baby son spent a night with pc games in my QRRS dorm. breakfast in KFC on way. returning to his mom’s house. lots of bliss in air in the Saturday, when it soothed our longings with clouds and drizzles. work load just completed, so fine! 

30/7/2011

dreamed of my passed dad, God in Heaven.^in the dream I first tried to negotiate to buy failing and losing state-owned property, then join a celebrating dancing team and passing my hometown village, Zhudajiu, where my beaming dad just discussing important issues with his patriots, other villagers. he glad to see me growing in social relation. he is so vivid in the dream, that I had to blog the dream after got up. I also find sexuality in the dancing girl, likely of minor tribe Mongolian, ahead me. 

29/7/2011

dreamed of baby son, and my passed dad’s enemies in his hometown.^yesterday another thunderstorm brought lots of rainfall in the sultry summer, just among my busy progress to update my google sites to incorporate recent changes of my profile online. its just too auspicious a day with Asoh Yukiko, as well as my Royal China. in this dawn dreamed of dad’s hometown with my best beloved baby son. I arranged him to exercise some sports game, in disadvantage of my passed dad’s sinful challengers, mostly offspring of the dark house owner in front of my dad’s old house, a treasure of my old memories, financially got well-being by following my dad’s business there. baby son never failed me, with his smartness, his diligence. I clearly see the bliss and promising. Its a bright morning now. 

28/7/2011

dreamed of losing sight.^last night its started to rain hard when I settled on bed. in dawn dreamed of suffering eyes sight and almost go blind. dreamed watching a movie in open space and sat aside a girl once worked in QRRS as an interpretor. joined canteen in time but 2 cops close sat aside same table to eat breakfast. they arrived later than I, so likely tentatively arranged. 

27/7/2011

dreamed married my Japanese girl.^last night it rained when I launched to save my be21zh.org offical google profile after reported violating its commmunity name rule. in the dawn dreamed of living in Japan in my girl’s house. she has a quite blessing father. we kissing and intimate everywhere, including behind the father-in-law’s presence. after some tests by the dad, we married. I felt almost sure the Japanese girl is my Crowned Queen of Royal China, Asoh Yukiko. Its a pale morning, but I know Asoh’s touching and tendering love from Heaven. 

25/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

abuse and murdering everyday in current China mainland.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：no redemption can save the lost. except the downturn of PRC with its dictation and fake faith of atheism.
邱毅：大陸前鐵道部長劉志軍因貪腐下台後，溫州動車追撞不僅重創大陸高鐵神話，也使鐵道運輸安全出現警訊。試想事件若發生在時速超過300公里的高鐵，會造成何等傷亡？當年劉志軍好大喜功，想爭世界第一，將 實驗速度 作為 營運速度 的非常規決策，擴張投資熱衷財務槓桿的操作，現在都應該做深切檢討。 原文 

22/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

famine in Africa needs world more helping hands.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：sin, sins, how could save arrives here?
华尔街日报中文网(华尔街日报)新媒体：【图集：索马里大饥荒】- “非洲之角”遭遇大旱，陷入近30年来最严重的饥荒。加上物价不断上涨和战争，大批索马里人流离失所，数万人正面临死亡威胁。图为两岁的索马里难民亚丁 沙拉德(Aden Salaad)坐在澡盆中望着正给他洗澡的母亲。http://163.fm/YRtOEiO 原文 

6/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

a new scandal in PRC’s mainstream.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：u shouldn’t blame her, for she is a common girl, like any beautiful girls on the street. she should be rewarded for disclose dark curtail from upper clad in sinful PRC and their manipulations. any girls, esp in their seasons, blessed with their dream of a better life on the earth, in the society. the unbearable losing is the broken social logic which allowing buying young and beautiful lives via money and abuse of state power.

宇丹律师(颜宇丹)： 7号晚间7点左右，郭美美发表微博称：“突然想睡一觉；突然想死；突然想大喊；突然想离家出走；突然想失忆。”早知今日，何必当初，只能怪自己自做自受吧！ 原文

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